I am gonna die

I have a new idea for using this blog. I can remember many of my dreams i see during night times (Day dreaming is not a very good indication of productive days). So, i thought i could write them all here.May be some day, i can sit and interpret them.

Today is July 09,2004.

I was in a Bio class. The same, BMB 401, which i flunked (nearly,i put a D in this, which is pretty bad because i am a grad student). There were many of my friends in the class. I vividly saw maggu, guru and Mudit. I vaguely remember some other people but i can't say for sure. Then i started running towards bogs just before the class.And then i woke up and went to bogs, discharged a tank full of piss and came back and slept again.

Part 2.

I died already. I died because of some heart ailment. I am going to die again, the same symptons show up again and i am going to go again. This time there is this doctor TIN (no idea what this means) but he pressed my left hand and there was pain in my right hand.He pressed my left leg and there was pain in my right leg. The diagnosis: My heart was confused in which direction the blood has to flow.So, they had to do a open surgery.They gave me two options. One was the quick way, with little pain and more risk. The other was much more painful but i might live. I don't remember which i chose.

I don't remember any others for now.So, i will just stop here.

I feel that dreams are shadows of the things that affect us most during a day or a certain period. And since they are shadows, they overlap with other shadows. They also have a connection with the reality. Like, sometimes when you are dreaming and some apparent aberration like ringing of a bell when there is no bell suppoed to be there, is an intrusion from real world.Dreams are very mysterious and they do have a very powerful effect on our daily lives. Happy dreams are an indication of optimism and generally well being. Troubled dreams could be because of some misery, pessimism or paranoia. There is lots to say about dreams. Will write later.bye for now.